Shooting Down Roots or Traveling On

if we stay in one place
we could plant a garden, fix up a chicken coop and raise a small group of hens for eggs, paint the walls and build more permanent structures, and take down walls and install a wood burning stove, know exactly where the Christmas tree will go and make traditions more permanent, have a place for everything, and everything in its place, not have to pack it all up again, put up a fence so we can open up the door in the morning and Olivia can run like hell, make friends and neighbors, find our place in the community, raise V in one house she'll always remember, be home.

if we continue to be an itinerant family
we get to decorate and settle in to a new house and explore a different town with all its shops, stops and peoples. know that we may leave to go anywhere, anytime. teach Violet that we are the home and traditions and meaning, not the place we're in. have to change our address on everything, again. feel that there are new possibilities, and horizons and opportunities. we feel free. But what is it we find so frightening that we need our freedom from?

Heeding the Call

I've dreamed of flying and finding for a week. instead of seeking
and falling.
what am I supposed to do?

Easter Thoughts

Why do I find Easter so depressing? I have since I was very young.

It snowed.

When I was in college I decided that Jesus was just another Mesopotamian shepherd god who was put to death to ensure the renewal of the crops. But there's more to it. Because Christ's sacrifice goes deeper. Historically, this marks the beginning of a new age, the end of the primitive consciousness. Psychologically, death and subsequent resurrection is imperative for every individual. How do we enact this? And